O God,
I go to sleep with prayers for us all on my mind and awake crying out for help. I don't know what help we need or even what might help.
But that is the point. Years of bad decisions and then progress!!! Then back a few steps, then better days, then BIG fail and despair. Lord, I hate, Hate, HATE addiction! I hate that it buries someone I love and respect and long to see free instead struggling, awash in confusion, fear, rage, and selfishness. Oh, I get the selfishness because it is clear this is a battle to the death and the choices are addiction clouded efforts trying frantically to survive. Unfortunately things that seem obvious to those who love the person struggling are ideas the addicted person rejects--from practical steps to appeals to change their perspective.
O Lord, I can't get through a day without You and You are always faithful and able. Why can't I help my beloved see this? Why are they struggling to turn to You? The years of embarrassment, guilt, loss turn into conviction that either You are not there or could never love someone who is such a mess. But I know how much You have loved me in my messes so it is breaking my heart to watch this very hard day filled with threats, despair, and chaos.
Help my loved one! I know the fact that we have gotten this far is proof of Your faithful care for my loved one. But today please send help. Send a glimpse of those moments of joy that speak so tenderly of Your love for us even in our brokenness. Send someone who can speak words my beloved can hear. Help my beloved welcome Your Spirit into the discussion. Help me pray for my beloved according to Your Will. Help us all.
I can ask because Jesus says I can. AMEN
Out of the depths I cry to you, O Lord! Psalm 130:1
I go to sleep with prayers for us all on my mind and awake crying out for help. I don't know what help we need or even what might help.
But that is the point. Years of bad decisions and then progress!!! Then back a few steps, then better days, then BIG fail and despair. Lord, I hate, Hate, HATE addiction! I hate that it buries someone I love and respect and long to see free instead struggling, awash in confusion, fear, rage, and selfishness. Oh, I get the selfishness because it is clear this is a battle to the death and the choices are addiction clouded efforts trying frantically to survive. Unfortunately things that seem obvious to those who love the person struggling are ideas the addicted person rejects--from practical steps to appeals to change their perspective.
O Lord, I can't get through a day without You and You are always faithful and able. Why can't I help my beloved see this? Why are they struggling to turn to You? The years of embarrassment, guilt, loss turn into conviction that either You are not there or could never love someone who is such a mess. But I know how much You have loved me in my messes so it is breaking my heart to watch this very hard day filled with threats, despair, and chaos.
Help my loved one! I know the fact that we have gotten this far is proof of Your faithful care for my loved one. But today please send help. Send a glimpse of those moments of joy that speak so tenderly of Your love for us even in our brokenness. Send someone who can speak words my beloved can hear. Help my beloved welcome Your Spirit into the discussion. Help me pray for my beloved according to Your Will. Help us all.
I can ask because Jesus says I can. AMEN
Out of the depths I cry to you, O Lord! Psalm 130:1
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