I am SO confused. That has been my accurately identified condition when faced with change, demands for a response or considering how I should proceed. And I am perfectly capable of flailing around in that sad state for such an extended period I have begun to suspect I like the merry-go-round of hunkering down and wallowing around in self-pity and self-aggrandizement. Ooh, poor me! My problems are the greatest of anyone ever!
I confess, my inner diva runs deep and wide when I let it run amok.
But when I ask God for help I begin to see a bit of light at the end of the tunnel and begin to believe it might not be the headlight of a giant train coming at me. I begin to look forward with hope and sometimes even a frisson of anticipation to what amazing grace God is spreading before me.
I had a Bible study leader several years ago that said he found one consistent characteristic of finding the way God lead in answer to prayers for guidance. If he prayed and waited hopefully, God sent solutions or direction to him that he found were just better than he had been thinking up on his own. He did not comment on the length of time that had taken in his experience, but I find it varies. Therefore, when I feel confused I not only pray and seek the help of the Spirit of God in waiting hopefully, I also am aware that as long as I am clinging to the vestiges of confusion then I am simply not ready to hear much less act on the better option.
Ever loving God, send Your Holy Spirit to pour discernment into my decision-making process that I might confidently embrace this truth: My highest good is Your Will in my life and I can discard all fear, anxiety and self-focus as I look forward with confidence to You guiding me where I am to go. Thank you, God, for dispersing confusion and sending enlightenment. AMEN
I confess, my inner diva runs deep and wide when I let it run amok.
But when I ask God for help I begin to see a bit of light at the end of the tunnel and begin to believe it might not be the headlight of a giant train coming at me. I begin to look forward with hope and sometimes even a frisson of anticipation to what amazing grace God is spreading before me.
I had a Bible study leader several years ago that said he found one consistent characteristic of finding the way God lead in answer to prayers for guidance. If he prayed and waited hopefully, God sent solutions or direction to him that he found were just better than he had been thinking up on his own. He did not comment on the length of time that had taken in his experience, but I find it varies. Therefore, when I feel confused I not only pray and seek the help of the Spirit of God in waiting hopefully, I also am aware that as long as I am clinging to the vestiges of confusion then I am simply not ready to hear much less act on the better option.
Ever loving God, send Your Holy Spirit to pour discernment into my decision-making process that I might confidently embrace this truth: My highest good is Your Will in my life and I can discard all fear, anxiety and self-focus as I look forward with confidence to You guiding me where I am to go. Thank you, God, for dispersing confusion and sending enlightenment. AMEN
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