Just because I have done all I know to do to rely on God does not mean I don't make errors because I am wholly human and fallible. And this knowledge can sometimes threaten to overwhelm my persistent embrace of God's guidance. I am so grateful God loves so much, because I know I too often fail to trust God while trying to convince myself I'm trying to do the right thing.
In my heart of hearts I have such comfort and am so deeply encouraged when I dance in time with God's leading and love. Yet I get distracted by the shiny worries and buyer's remorse and the discouragement that the World whispers into my ear and the anxiety rises and the self-doubt expands.
But that term self-doubt is the heart of the issue. If I rely on my own wisdom and strength I am only sane to be worried silly about how things will turn out. But when I correctly rely on God's wisdom and strength I am filled with confidence, not in my own abilities but in Gods perfect love of me and ability to provide generously for me.
Maybe I'm asking God with such deep longing to move to a bigger house and God says, "Not yet!" And the next time I try to organize the closet or to find something I've carefully packed away, the temptation is great to feel discouraged and worried about the decision. Then something happens and we realize that what we were planning would have been something of a disaster and, by helping us wait God has gotten our finances where they need to be or the perfect lot has come on the market in a neighborhood that will provide blessings for years to come. The same thing happens in choosing a profession or finding employment or dealing with a health issue or any decision we face.
When tempted to gnaw on a decision carefully made, God welcomes my prayers ASKING for God's Will to be manifest in our lives and my prayers asking God to give me wisdom, patience, discernment, persistence and all the other capacities that will keep me from veering off course. After all, you cannot add any time to your life by worrying about it. (Matt. 6:27)
So the most responsible thing we can do is turn our back on worry and discouragement, trusting God's help and resting in the comfort that God's encouragement is ours for the taking.
In my heart of hearts I have such comfort and am so deeply encouraged when I dance in time with God's leading and love. Yet I get distracted by the shiny worries and buyer's remorse and the discouragement that the World whispers into my ear and the anxiety rises and the self-doubt expands.
But that term self-doubt is the heart of the issue. If I rely on my own wisdom and strength I am only sane to be worried silly about how things will turn out. But when I correctly rely on God's wisdom and strength I am filled with confidence, not in my own abilities but in Gods perfect love of me and ability to provide generously for me.
Maybe I'm asking God with such deep longing to move to a bigger house and God says, "Not yet!" And the next time I try to organize the closet or to find something I've carefully packed away, the temptation is great to feel discouraged and worried about the decision. Then something happens and we realize that what we were planning would have been something of a disaster and, by helping us wait God has gotten our finances where they need to be or the perfect lot has come on the market in a neighborhood that will provide blessings for years to come. The same thing happens in choosing a profession or finding employment or dealing with a health issue or any decision we face.
When tempted to gnaw on a decision carefully made, God welcomes my prayers ASKING for God's Will to be manifest in our lives and my prayers asking God to give me wisdom, patience, discernment, persistence and all the other capacities that will keep me from veering off course. After all, you cannot add any time to your life by worrying about it. (Matt. 6:27)
So the most responsible thing we can do is turn our back on worry and discouragement, trusting God's help and resting in the comfort that God's encouragement is ours for the taking.
RSS Feed
